…this darkness inside? How is it not there one second and then overwhelming the next? Don’t get me wrong, for right now I am good, I’m in a good place. But there are times when I just am not. I’m not the only one like that either. It just makes me wonder, where does it come from and where does it go when we finally overcome it’s grasp. And why can’t we seem to send it away forever?

I see it as those pesky little demons that Satan chooses to throw at us at the slightest sign of distress. He will do anything to bring us down. But God’s angels are far greater than the demons that attack me, I just have to believe in them to get their help. Sound simple? You’d think it would be cake. But it’s not. Self doubt, fear, loneliness, anger…all these things make us lose our grip on our faith.

My pain and despair are tough to get through sometimes, but it is when I see my friends in the same place that it really hurts. It tears my heart out to know someone else is in a place I have been in and I know that there is not much I can do but be there. That’s it…just… BE THERE. That feeling of helplessness is almost crippling. But I just hang on tight, let them know that I AM there and then pray. Pray that they find a way out of their darkness and pray that I don’t fail them.

Friends are truly hard to find. When you find one(s) that you can trust, you would do anything for them. I have found a few of these in my lifetime. Mostly since I began my walk with Jesus (do you think THAT is a coincidence?) and I treasure each one individually. I would do anything within my ability to help them in any way I could.

To my friends out there, you know who you are, know that I thank God everyday for putting you in my life and that I would truly do anything for you.

Pastor Gary, you are one of the most amazing people I have ever met, I can’t imagine the struggles you face daily and yet you always ’seem’ ready to help anyone, no matter what the cost to you. I’ve seen your human side, I know you have bad days, I know that you still get your faith tested daily. I hope you know that my family will be there for you no matter what, just like you have been there for us. I will never be able to put into words what happened to my heart the night you came to the hospital when my husband and son were hit by that drunk driver.

Wherever life takes us, wherever we go,
share a smile with a stranger, a simple hello.
Extend your hand to help another get through
the next one to need help could be you.

Thanks for coming by, have a great day and God Bless,
Jena