Ok, ok! So I’ve slacked on the journal! But I haven’t slacked on the fast. 13 days and still going strong. The remainder of last week went fairly well. No major issues, no problems or hard struggles. I say that now, but I know that while I was going through some of the days, I thought I would just cry, well, I DID cry! It is a really hard struggle to just not eat. I miss food terribly and with all the food around me, I half defeated myself coming up with of a ton of reasons why I should eat. And YESTERDAY!!!! Let me just say that I spent the day outside while we were at my in-laws. There was just too much food there. Basically holidays consist of eating until it’s time to eat!
All in all, the going has been a struggle but not impossible. I have stood in my kitchen and cried on my husband’s shoulder because I just wanted something…anything…and yet I didn’t want to quit. I have prayed (am praying) daily to make it through. I can’t guarantee that I’ll make it all 30 days, but I can tell you I am going to go as long as possible to finish what I started. That’s what this is really about, finding the person inside of me who is not afraid. Who will make a commitment and stick to it. Who is ready to give whatever necessary for God.
I will try to stay on top of this journal more, but now I need to email my mom and sister as I didn’t get in touch with them for Easter and I want to say Hi before I go to bed.
Thanks for stopping by, God Bless!
~ Jena ~